Yesterday was an emotionally horrible day for me- after an upsetting dream involving my mother- I could not shake off images all day & finally went home after literal hours of crying at work. A Black cloud day for sure. I could not shake the thoughts from my mind so I wallowed in them against my own will.
It's was a trying day!
My niece and I have been on a spiritual journey it seems somewhat together. She is beginning a relationship with God- and i'm renewing mine. It seems as if i've been renewing it for quite some time now so maybe I shouldn't say "renewing"?? But it feels right to me. I was astray for more than 1/2 my life so I think I may always think of my relatinoship with my creator as being newly rekindled. Well she and I have been buying and reading and sharing thoughts from books and experiences mostly relating to our spirituality. It's like a class in college you really LOVE and can't get enough of, but some how we went away for Christmas break and never got back to studying. We both realized this recently as the air seemed stagnet and non-productive.
I have been thinking about which book I would start next. I have purchased more than i've had time to read. So in a quick scroll of my favorite blogs I see that one person referred to the only C.S. Lewis book i've purchased and quoted it as it was on his mind.
"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on: you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of — throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were going to be made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself."
That's Beautiful- I think i've decided to start here.
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