How do I put it to rest?

I was reading some blogs today and I know God is speaking to me.

I am in a situation where I am needing God to show me his way- I've even prayed for it while secretly fearing it won't work out in my favor; All the while knowing that what is in my favor is what he has planned for me. It's frustrating to know I'm that ignorant and selfish. I think to myself that I can't help wishing my security take center stage, but I know it's just my weakness and struggle against submission. I know this yet it's hard for me to give up my wants and my view of the way things should be.

So I was reading some blogs I frequent and saw someone's who also struggled recently with some of the same matters that I am- even if they are different situations I think the anxieties are similar and I empathize and recognize that God is showing me that blog because he wants me to know I am not alone and that I'll be fine. He is working on these matters with others as well and I need to trust in him.

How do I put it to rest- how do I get away from the anxiety and the internal goings on of my mind and trust?

I have no answers and even the question upsets me- I sit here with tears in my eyes because I have no control- I say I want God to take control and yet that scares the hell out of me. Why? I should fair better with God in control- right?

What is my problem?